Week 42

Oh my! Only 10 weeks to go!

This project originally started as a means to managing the bipolar lows when they hit so that there would be some kind of measurable achievement for the day. I have to admit I am behind on the amount of hexagons I should have. Maybe only by about 5 or 6 (but there have been a few times where it has got as many as 20 behind) but, and this is probably quite an important but, but I have managed to craft in some way, shape or form, even on some of the really low days. And there have been quite a few. A few where the depression has got so bad that I've (on more than one occasion) tried to take my life. I'm not putting this out there as means of encouraging sympathy or whatever, it is what it is. It's part of what makes up this illness. In contrast there have been times where I have been (not full blown) but certainly in stages of mania, which for the most part are very productive times as I barely sleep, though have their equally destructive qualities.

The meds have certainly helped to stabilise I am still rapid cycling it is for the most part to a lesser degree than before. It is becoming more manageable, both for myself as I learn more about what triggers certain things, and also for my family as they learn also about how this illness affects me and effects them.

The hexagon project will be completed and it will be a testament to the trying year it has been on many levels. There have been many other personal struggles unrelated to mental illness that have had to be overcome. It's quite a long list, but I'm not willing to share the nature of most of it out in the ether.

I will endeavor to share a photo of the blanket soon, along with many of the other projects I have undertaken this year.

Thank you for reading this :)